Thursday, 30 July 2009

9 weeks

I know it's been a while since I've written anything... but to be honest, it's been so difficult to do anything! Morning sickness has hit, and it's a real bummer... it's not as bad as many others have it, and I'm not throwing up THAT much, but I sure feel like I'm about to every other minute!!

On top of that I feel like I can smell every bad smell within a kilometer... and I've recently decided that my bedroom is the only room that doesn't have strange smells (it's also the room with the most openable windows). So each day I've been bringing in my laptop, a mini table, and all my books and setting up a work space here. >.<

All the books and websites advise people to eat dry foods like crackers often... but I am very much hating eating anything. Last night Ryan had to guilt me into taking my vitamin. (to the baby: I'm so sorry that I'm not eating much now, but I really am trying hard!)

I was reading yesterday that in this stage of pregnancy I really have control over nothing... not over how I feel, what I can or can't eat, if I can keep food down, how I act (or overreact!), or what my mood will be... and that it should be a blessing! What?!? you may ask... but it's in these times that we have no control over how we feel or over the development of a little one that we already love so much, and only then can we fully lean on our Father to be our support and provider.

I desperately worry that things won't go well, but I know that through whatever circumstances that I will be thankful for God's leading in my life, knowing that in all things He gives me strength and that He works for the good of those who love Him. Which means that good days and bad, He has a plan for me. So I will keep rejoicing in Him and trusting in His plans...

And this is yet another time that God continues to teach me patience and trust. I wonder if it will ever stop being so hard for me....

Sunday, 5 July 2009

week 5...

We are truly blessed!

I've been feeling fairly fine all week... I keep saying to Ryan that I don't feel pregnant. To which he replies with this dialogue:

"Do you feel tired?"
"Have you been taking naps?"
"How many naps do you usually take?"
"Do you feel dizzy or lightheaded?"
"Have you had your period?!?!"
"You're pregnant!"

I have been feeling pretty good though. Except Saturday evening we had our married couples small group over, and I was in the kitchen preparing dinner when I bent down to get something from a low shelf, lost my balance, hit my head and cut it ever so slightly (but enough that I was sore and cranky!).

Its difficult with pregnancy because so many people don't want to share info so early... but we've decided to start telling people. Mostly because we want to be extra covered in prayer ~ which we are!

After church yesterday our Pastor and several others laid hands on us and prayed for Ryan and I and the baby (babies?). We heard from several people how they had been praying for us, our marriage, and for babies... Our Pastor prayed for this baby and for babies to come... And several others have shared how they feel that this will be a successful pregnancy. I feel very blessed.

Actually, the sermon yesterday was about listening when God speaks - and responding or acting on it. And afterward, we greeted one of the worship leaders and he told us that he felt that God wanted us to go and get prayer ~ what's great is that he didn't know we were expecting yet.

So we're praying each day for our little one to grow and develop into a healthy baby that we will meet in March. We're also praying more for our marriage and for discernment to understand what God wants for us... It's an exciting adventure finding out...

In the meantime, I'm really trying to be a wife of noble character. I'm trying to be supportive for Ry, and be generous and encouraging to our friends here. Last week we had a friend stay for several days after she injured both ankles. I'm pleased to say that I made dinner most nights, kept a fairly tidy home, did the dishes each night, and hosted several people several times... Slowly but surely I'm working on being more hospitable and generous... and God is not only teaching me, but giving me the opportunity to practice!

My next step? Trying to be more encouraging with Ry ~ even though encouraging words don't come easily to me...

Wednesday, 1 July 2009

1 Samuel 1:27

What a week!

well, Monday was 14dpo... and I was psyched to test (took all my strength not to test Sunday night after I bought the tests). I wanted Ry to be there when I did it... cause I didn't want to have to tell him on the phone and I'd be too excited or sad to wait all day... so he woke me up in the morning as he was getting ready for work.

Grumpy as I am in the morning, I went straight to the bathroom, peed on the stick, waited about 30seconds and when I saw nothing got mad and went back to bed.

About 5 minutes later, I thought that I really should check again so I asked Ryan what was on the test.

He came into the room and said, "There's one dark line and one light line..." At that I jumped out of bed and grabbed it from him. There were definitely two lines. WOWZAS!!!!! We were excited but still a little unsure, so Ry went off to work and I went to the Dr.s for bloodwork.

Tuesday morning I woke up at 5am having to pee, and had a 2nd test so I took it. It was pretty much the same as Monday... total mixed feelings. Psyched and anxious... I wondered what the chances of 2 false positives were.

Wednesday 5pm I FINALLY get a call back from the doctors office congratulating me and confirming my first ultrasound for next week.

Now I am 4 weeks along, and taking progesterone 3x daily and baby aspirin 1x daily along with my vitamins. The progesterone is to keep my hormones stable and support the pregnancy and the aspirin is to prevent clots which may cause miscarriages.

We've shared our news with few people, but are thankful for all the prayer and encouragement.

1 Samuel 1:27

I prayed for this child, and the LORD has granted me what I asked of him.

Thank you for this blessing!!!!!!!